thyroid

1. write about thyroid/ sadness
2. arun
3. class on sunday.
heythere. i saw arun today.
how was that
amazing. so glad i went. it was very healing. he asked how u were btw...
i need to see him
he gave me this mantra- to transfer sadness into strength. its interesting tho- not only is it the mantra for that, but its also the mantra for heaing hypo-thyroid. coincidence?
will u look at this quickly
http://www.non-gravity.com/team_ellie/hollywoodenflames_sketch.jpg
6:15 PM
lookin at link now and wow to the coincidence!!!
really i dont think it loos like me
no, not really, there's something in the essence that's like you
its hard to draw people ya know. my family guy charcter looks weiiiird. i look like a grandma or something
i am suppoesed to give him some notes. what do you think. i think my body should be fire, not like, naked nextto it
you should def have more fire and less naked. i would feel weird. haha!
the face and hair also don't look very much like you. there's something in the posture...esp the hands and arms, that is like you...
he is ggonna work on the likeness.
and the back arching..when you're all lady mc. fierce
6:20 PM
yah. totes hate the nakkid.
when are you coming home today?
hopefully in 30..and if so, wold love to jog
or soemthing
well, miss no eaty here would like to go for a walk before i leave town, but no jogging.
ok
sometimes fasting is good
you don't want to gag your emotions
but also, clean , thoughtful eating is also good to nurture and heal
yeah arun was like, danielle don't eat until you have an appetite. make sure i drink tho
absolute
and then noursihing foods ,like hot soups.
you can make yourself sick if you're not calm when you eat
good idea! soups!
that's easy to flow with
that arun. such a smartie pants.
i know right
when i told him what happened, he said more to help me than anyone has.
i'm curious
He said I have to find support elsewhere. That I have to find something to recreate the fire within me. That i need to set out purpose in my day. I need to process the grieving. - i need to grief for the feeling of love and stability being gone, and then i need to find the joy, in that it exists, and that it will come again one day when i am ready and not looking.
I will process the grief if i try to understand his motivations from his perspective
that's pretty similar to what peeps been saying...just maybe more eloquent
hm
yah. i know.
that's a weird one
but no, i understand
i like how he said that i haveto surrender the emotion.
if you look at it that way, with a meditative egoless mind, i'm sure it can be quite enlightening
i do like that too
then its YOURS
you OWN this

oh, i think with the whole, his perspective, thing, is just a lot like, look this guy - whats his deal about? and not so much like, oh, i am not loved anymore. like, taking objective distance. like, us anaylizing our men
word
anyways, he did point out, that i was different this time around. and that i gave and grew more with this relationship, even if ben didnt. but, now, i just have more places to grow ,so next time, it will be even more comfortable so to speak